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My childhood friend just told me she is disappointed in me.. She used to think that when I settle down in my new life, I will start to be the cool- me again. She had this long list of things she thought I will like to do but I am just too lost to follow:
Reading never ending novels in one sitting,
Trying out all the new Cafes in town,
Dying our hair crazy colours every 3 weeks,
Walking on the tiny side ways of that lost highway,
Start a new dance lesson,
Learn to bake proper cakes,
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Ahh her list could go on forever and she said she is not going to call me anymore until she finds me calling her one day saying I am back to my old crazy self..

I mean, God, if you've really decided to drown me in this vertigo, for your own names sake don't let these historical friends remind me how lost, how very lost and changed I've become.
Cause I might be jelous and in a suicidal moment of reflection just undone Everyyyything.
Thank you!
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